How I've been feeling lately ∣ Anxiety, overthinking, etc.

Sunday, 11 April 2021

London, UK
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Lately, I’ve been feeling really anxious, sad and lonely. I decided to write this post to share my experience coping with these emotions and let others know that it is totally fine if you feel like this.



For the past couple of days, I noticed that I became really emotional and anxious. I cannot think straight - if I try to, I just overthink and I get scared and that tires me so much to the point where I just lay in bed most of the day and listen to music. Even though I have friends that I talk to on a regular basis, I feel lonely. I realized that this lockdown literally absorbed all my happy thoughts (wow I am just so great at explaining) and I feel really unmotivated – again.


I am really bothered with not being that much active on my blog as I want to because I love writing so much and I am so proud of myself for starting a blog, but every time I sit and open my laptop my mind goes blank, and I don’t know what to write about. Everything I write seems so superficial and it doesn’t feel right.


I talked to my friends and my family about my feelings, and they have all been so supporting that it made me feel a lot better because I know that this feeling will pass soon. I am so grateful for having such a supporting circle of people that really care about me.


I just wanted to write this short post to tell you that if you’re dealing with the same emotions, you are not alone. We all go through something and it is perfectly fine you feel like this. For me, it really helped talking to my family because they are always here for me so I would say try talking to someone you know and maybe getting help from a psychologist.


There is nothing to be ashamed of feeling this way and wanting help. This lockdown hasn’t been gentle on any of us, but you can be gentle to yourself and try staying positive. Doing some small tasks in a day can really help you, and I know that this sounds so dumb but always make your bed when you get up – tidy bed, tidy mind, like my mum says.



If you don’t feel comfortable talking to someone you know, you can always message me – maybe we can help each other out, who knows. I am here to remind you that it will be fine, it won’t last forever, and you’ll feel better really soon.


I hope that with university starting tomorrow and me actually going to campus once a week will make me feel a lot better and that I'll start focusing on my blog exactly the way I want to.



Stay safe!

Love, Bruna 

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Studying abroad - lectures, the process, everything you need to know

Tuesday, 6 April 2021

London, UK
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One of the reasons why I decided to move to London and to study here is because of the people. I visited London two times before deciding to apply to study there and I knew that I am definitely, one day, going to live there. If  I'm being honest, I didn't believe it would come true this soon. 

People in London and in Croatia are very different. I can't stop comparing London and Croatia. Almost every single day I find myself comparing those two. In so many ways Croatia is better than living in London, but the same is for London being better than Croatia.  


Let's get onto this post!




Why London?

As I mentioned above, ever since I visited London I knew that I wanted to live there, at least for a while. I was once told that the best years in life are when you are going to university, so I just had a vision that going to uni in London is even better than being in my home country and studying there. Besides that, my brother lives in Manchester which isn't that far and even though I did look for colleges there, courses here in London were so much better and interesting. 




The whole process of applying

I don't know if anyone will find this helpful but if you're considering applying to the UK to study then have a read. I applied through a website UCAS. It is really easy to apply there - the website has everything that you wish to know more about and it has every university and its courses. You can apply to maximum of five universities and you need to pay a fee (if I remember correctly it was 25 GBP). You need to write your own kind of a cover letter and you need to find someone to write about your skills and why you deserve to study there - my reference was my English teacher from high school, she wrote a short essay about me and my personality, skills, etc. After you apply through that website, you wait for universities to contact you. 



After applying

So after I applied I waited for universities to respond. Some of them responded after a few days and some responded about a month after I sent out my application. Two universities wanted me to write an essay on given topics and other colleges gave me a conditional offer. If you're wondering what conditional offer is, it is literally what is says it is. It means that you are accepted to university if you get your overall grade above the one that they wish for. I got accepted to 4 out of 5 colleges but ever since I applied I knew which one I want to get in.

After I wrote the essays for the two universities, one of them rejected me, which was totally fine because it wasn't my first choice and the other asked me for an interview. I had an interview a few weeks later via Skype (it was for my first choice). The lady that interviewed me was so nice, she could see that I was really nervous and excited at the same time and we just talked about general topics. After the interview she told me that I would be a great fit to the course and that I am accepted if I meet the conditions. 

Besides passing my state exam, I needed to pass IELTS test. It is a test designed by British Council I think and you need to have that exam in order to study in the United Kingdom. Some universities don't need that test but mine did. The test consists of four parts: listening, reading, writing and speaking. I actually studied for this test more than the state exam because I heard from so many people that passing the IELTS is really hard. I got the exact same grade that I needed to get into university.




Finances

Now, as for the finances part. I applied for a tuition fee scholarship. I don't exactly remember how it's called but I know that 2020 was the last year that I could apply for a scholarship because I am not a UK citizen and the UK was exiting European Union at that time - so if I didn't get accepted, I would now be studying in Croatia. Universities are so expensive in the UK, that is something that no one tells you and they aren't even private. Thankfully, I passed everything exactly how I needed to so I don't have to worry to pay for my university until I finish it and get a full-time job. 



My first day at uni

I was sooo scared of starting university, mostly because of my English skills. I know how to speak English but I am so scared to speak in front of people so I was really nervous. I remember waking up really fucking early and I got ready in 30 minutes and ate and rushed to the station. I got there first. Yes, I was really early, I got there 30 minutes before I needed to. The day before, some of my colleagues and me went out for drinks so we can get to know each other better so I wasn't that scared of meeting people cause I already met most of them. I was so overwhelmed with the information we got on our first day and I was sure that there is no chance that I can survive this. Here I am now, I passed to subjects and I'm totally fine. 




Let's talk about the way of teaching

I can't stop comparing the way of teaching here in London and in Croatia. In Croatia, you need to know everything that is in the book and the theory is the most important thing you need to know. Here it couldn't be more far away. Of course there are some theory you need to know, but here everything is about reading, researching and practice. If you don't research enough you won't have enough evidence to support the arguments and here learning is actually fun. It is more creative here and you can express yourself without worrying someone will judge you. I just love London because no one here gives a damn about what you are doing, what are you wearing and with who are you with. That is something that I think will never change in some parts of Croatia - yes, I am talking about my home town. 






I am in no way bragging about studying abroad. I am just here to share my experience and help someone if they want to study abroad as me. This is just a friendly reminder that you can do absolutely everything you wish for if you work hard enough. 

If you have any more questions about studying in the UK and moving, I'd love to help you. I am always available on my Instagram so you can just send me a DM. 

Thank you for reading todays post! Hope to see you very soon!


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Stay safe!

Love, Bruna 
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My morning routine as a fashion student

Wednesday, 24 March 2021

London, UK
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I hope I am not the only one when I say that I absolutely adore watching morning routines on YouTube - I don't know what it is about them, I just find them really calming and relaxing to watch. These kind of videos always make me want to turn my life around and start waking up at 7 am even though I am 99% sure that will never happen. 

I decided to share my morning routine just so you can get a small peek of what a morning looks like living in London and being a fashion student (it's honestly not at all different than living anywhere else and studying something different - part of this is because of the pandemic :) so I have nothing to do in the mornings). 

Before I get onto the post, I'd just like to say that I'm sorry I've been MIA here. I had a lot of catching up to do with my university work and now that spring break is just around the corner, I can focus on both more - university and my blog.





8.00 am: Alarm goes off

I'm a 100% not a morning person (even though I try to be) but I (sometimes) like to wake up early. Usually when I wake up, I scroll through my phone a bit, answer some messages and I check my emails. 


8.20 - 9.00 am: Cleaning, skincare and coffee



After a 15,20 minute scroll through my phone, I get up and I make my bed. After that I change into something comfy - joggers and sweatshirt. Then I go to the bathroom and I wash my face with the Balea washing creme. After I do that, I go into my room and I do my everyday skin care routine.

The first product I put on my face is The Ordinary moisturizer "Natural Moisturizing Factors + HA". I've actually been using this product for a year now and I absolutely love it! It makes my skin so soft and silky and I think it really helps with blackheads and small scars. After that moisturizer, I use another one by Balea called Aqua Creme-Gel. This is super affordable in Croatia and it leaves me the glowy look I want. 

After my skin-care routine, I go into the kitchen and I make myself either a cappuccino or cocoa. I know, I know, who drinks cocoa in the morning? Well, I've been drinking cocoa in the morning since I started elementary school and my dad used to make it for me when I was younger (he makes the best god damn cocoa in the world) so I decided to continue the tradition here, all by myself, in London. 

9.00 - 9.45 am: Going through my planner, watching YouTube


After I get my hot cocoa, I sit on my desk and go through my planner. I write every task I need to do during the day and I write my notes and ideas there - usually blog post ideas and ideas for my uni work. The planner I am using is from Stradivarius and I am not exaggerating when I say that this brand has the best stationery supplies - cute and affordable (not sponsored lol I can only dream). 

After I do that, I just watch a few videos from my favourite youtubers. The ones I am loving at the moment are Claudia Sulewski (I think that my crush for this woman will never go away), Sophie Floyd, Sian Lilly.. Also can we talk about Hailey Baldwin Bieber starting her own YouTube channel? Literally in l-o-v-e.

9.45 am - 1 pm: Lectures, lectures, lectures..


From 9.45 to 10 am I just prepare for the lecture. I go through the notes and remind myself what we did last time and I check the website for any updates.

Because I am writing this post about my Monday mornings, I'll just mention that on Mondays I have Fashion Activism lecture that starts at 10 am and is until 1 pm. This is actually one of my favourite lectures so far because we're in groups and we have to do a lot of researching for brands which is so exciting! 





Thank you guys for tuning into todays post! I'll see you again on Sunday!

Comment below how your morning routine looks like and if it's similar like mine!


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Stay safe!

Love, Bruna 

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